Yesterday, Heather and I were talking about the Halloweens we've shared. When she and Becky were in grade school, they allowed the kids to dress up in their costumes and have a fun day at school.
The year she was in 3rd or 4th grade, I made her a "Woodsy the Owl" costume. I was very proud of it.I had spent a lot of time creating the thing. It was like a long brown pillow case that came down to the calves of her legs. I had made little "owl" ears and sewed them on the side and painted large yellow circles for eyes, and cut out the centers , so she could see.
The thing I was so proud of, was I cut out lots of little feathers out of brown felt and sewed them all around the sack in rows and then layers that over lapped each other so it really looked like the body of an Owl.
When she wore it trick or treating she didn't have too much trouble. But when she wore it to school the next day, Problems developed.
For you see, I didn't cut out a mouth. She said she had a very hard time talking all day and for lunch she had to pull it up over her head to eat. I guess when she tried to talk the material would get wet and make it very uncomfortable. She may have said she even got chapped lips from the wet material. hahaha
Then I remembered the year I made Becky a pumpkin. It turned out good and she looked so cute in it. The only problem was, I had it pulled up at the bottom to make it look round like a pumpkin, and when she tried to walk, she had to take very tiny little steps. It became a difficult situation for her when I tried to make her get in the car to take them to different places to trick or treat. she had a horrible time climbing in and out of the car. Heather could run up to the house, get her treat and pass Becky on the way back, because Becky had to walk so slow. Oh what fun I made for my kids. I'm sure they loved me for it.
Great memories girls. Great memories. Thanks for making them for me.
Love you both , bunches and bunches. mom.
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Halloween 2010
Tonight was Trick-or-Treat in Shelby. Usually Becky and I give out the candy. We put chairs outside and don our coats and take blankets to wrap ar0und us, and sit and wait on the kids to come and ask for candy.
This year, Adam stayed with me for about thirty minutes. I put a jack-o-lantern that he had carved outside and put a votive with a lighted candle in it, inside the pumpkin, also I had a little pumpkin that took a battery, and lit up, a ceramic scarecrow holding a pumpkin that I put a candle in, some fall leaves, and the fall bouquet that liz and Grady got for us when Becky died, a stuffed scarecrow and a paper macrame pumpkin, and put them all outside on the stoop. It looked quite halloweeney. We dressed Daisy in her "Drama Queen" shirt and put a little straw hat on her head. She was real cute.
When Adam left at 6:30, we hadn't had one trick or treater. After he left I had about 10 kids come.
Then I carried everything back inside and Trick-or-Treat was over for another year. It Stunk. I did not enjoy it at all. Halloween was never my favorite holiday, but Becky and i had a good time giving out the treats to the little kids, then we always spent time together talking about the cute costumes we had seen. Such a little thing shared with someone could bring a happy feeling. I think happy feelings are over.
One life to share things with. I knew she would always be by my side. How much it hurts to lose that closeness. To never have known that closeness would be harder than the loneliness you get when it's gone, so, thanks Beck, for being my best friend. You are missed.
Love, mom
This year, Adam stayed with me for about thirty minutes. I put a jack-o-lantern that he had carved outside and put a votive with a lighted candle in it, inside the pumpkin, also I had a little pumpkin that took a battery, and lit up, a ceramic scarecrow holding a pumpkin that I put a candle in, some fall leaves, and the fall bouquet that liz and Grady got for us when Becky died, a stuffed scarecrow and a paper macrame pumpkin, and put them all outside on the stoop. It looked quite halloweeney. We dressed Daisy in her "Drama Queen" shirt and put a little straw hat on her head. She was real cute.
When Adam left at 6:30, we hadn't had one trick or treater. After he left I had about 10 kids come.
Then I carried everything back inside and Trick-or-Treat was over for another year. It Stunk. I did not enjoy it at all. Halloween was never my favorite holiday, but Becky and i had a good time giving out the treats to the little kids, then we always spent time together talking about the cute costumes we had seen. Such a little thing shared with someone could bring a happy feeling. I think happy feelings are over.
One life to share things with. I knew she would always be by my side. How much it hurts to lose that closeness. To never have known that closeness would be harder than the loneliness you get when it's gone, so, thanks Beck, for being my best friend. You are missed.
Love, mom
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Two Months
Today= October 28,2010. Just two months ago, my daughter , Rebecca Mignon , passed away. It seems more like two years. I am still trying to grasp that it happened. I feel like I am walking around in a daze at all times. I know I am functioning, but I don't know how.
I just wanted to tell you, Becky, that I still miss you. I went to your house yesterday. Your memory still lingers there for me. I watered your plants. You would be proud to know they are still living. I couldn't help but cry, remembering how much you enjoyed that little place. It was the perfect place for you. I'm sorry, honey, that you couldn't enjoy it longer. I have to keep thinking that your new place is so much better.
You should see your flowers outside. They are really pretty now. I need to get over there and take a picture before the cold weather kills them. It may be too late for it is already 34 degrees tonight. I will try to go tomorrow if I can.
Linda and I are going to go and have lunch with Heather tomorrow. She really misses not having you to eat lunch with. Tomorrow night we are going to Shelby's last football game. It is home and we are playing Willard. It is supposed to be really cold. You would love it.Heather has been a real trooper and went with me to all the things we used to go to. I am going to take your camera and try and take some pics, just for you. I don't do real well yet. Never taken night pics, but you send your spirit down and help me.
Well, babe, I'd better close for now.It's almost 2 o'clock and I had better try and get some sleep. Don't sleep very much since you left.Wish you were here so we could sit up together again. Guess you had your fill of that while you were here. Rest well and remember I will always love you even if we are in two separate worlds for now. Tell dad I said "Hi" and I love him too. Good night to my precious girl.
Love forever and ever, mom
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I just wanted to tell you, Becky, that I still miss you. I went to your house yesterday. Your memory still lingers there for me. I watered your plants. You would be proud to know they are still living. I couldn't help but cry, remembering how much you enjoyed that little place. It was the perfect place for you. I'm sorry, honey, that you couldn't enjoy it longer. I have to keep thinking that your new place is so much better.
You should see your flowers outside. They are really pretty now. I need to get over there and take a picture before the cold weather kills them. It may be too late for it is already 34 degrees tonight. I will try to go tomorrow if I can.
Linda and I are going to go and have lunch with Heather tomorrow. She really misses not having you to eat lunch with. Tomorrow night we are going to Shelby's last football game. It is home and we are playing Willard. It is supposed to be really cold. You would love it.Heather has been a real trooper and went with me to all the things we used to go to. I am going to take your camera and try and take some pics, just for you. I don't do real well yet. Never taken night pics, but you send your spirit down and help me.
Well, babe, I'd better close for now.It's almost 2 o'clock and I had better try and get some sleep. Don't sleep very much since you left.Wish you were here so we could sit up together again. Guess you had your fill of that while you were here. Rest well and remember I will always love you even if we are in two separate worlds for now. Tell dad I said "Hi" and I love him too. Good night to my precious girl.
Love forever and ever, mom
t
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