Saying Goodbye

My precious baby girl, Rebecca Mignon went home to heaven on August 28,2010. She was 39 years old.

She spent the last 13 days of her life in Grant Medical Hospital in Columbus, Ohio, undergoing all kinds of tests. The first week there, we were told she had pancreatic cancer. They were planning on sending her home. With chemo , we were told she could have a year to live. The second week, her kidneys failed and her liver stopped producing proteins. She died on Saturday. Our pastor said that God showed her mercy even in death, because what kind of life would that year have been. She suffered horrible back pain.

The one thing that haunts me is, where she couldn't have anything to eat most of the time we were there because of the tests. She would beg for food and I wanted to give her some so bad.

We had to say good-bye to Granny Brown on July 26,2010, also. Becky was down there on her birthday. We thought she was having kidney stone problems then, and was pretty sick. Her aunt
Diana told cousin Lisa it was her b-day, and Lisa, who was headed to Wal-mart brought back helium balloons and gifts for all of us to give her. Lisa's gift was a gag one filled with prunes, rubber gloves, etc. ( Becky had impacted bowels from all the vicadin she had been taking). She enjoyed the small party we did for her.

Came home, and we had bought tickets for "Phantom" for Saturday (aug.14). She went to see Dr. Peck on thursday Aug. 12. He said he couldn't see the stone, but scheduled some surgery for Tues. the 17th. Said he would try to use a scope and go in that way, just because she was in so much pain. She had appt. with Dr. Sinha that same afternoon. He said he would look at the CAT scan one more time. He came back in room and told her something was wrong with the pancreas. Set up an appt for a surgeon on next Thursday.Sent her to Shelby Hosp. for blood work.

Friday, she was so sick she said she could not go to see "Phantom". Sold Andi Glass the ticket.Sat. morning Andi called said she had been sick all night and could not go with us.Told Beck and she said she was a little better and decided to go with us. She had a good time and told me once that she was excited to see the show again. Still pretty sick, but she carried on.

Monday morning called Dr. Sinha and said she could not wait till Thurs. He sent her to Ashland Hospital Emergency room. The ER doc. had the original CAT scan sent to him and told us that the "cyst" was really large and she needed to be referred to Grant or OSU. Which one can get me in first, she said. A squad came in 15 min. and took her to Grant, where she stayed for 13 days and died.

So now I have to say good-bye to her and Granny. One of the mom's of Adam's friends had become good friends with her. She sent a bouquet of flowers to the funeral. It had one red rose and one white rose that was just a bud in it.Pam told Heather that the red rose meant friendship and the white rose meant saying good-bye.

This morning the red rose looks the same, but the white rose bud has bloomed out and the petals are already starting to fall off. I guess she is saying good -bye to us too.

Be happy in heaven Beck ! We'll be there soon so save us a place next to you. Love forever Mom